Yeah, so I'm back! Innumerable changes have occurred in the past few months and whatever was blocking my creativity has been freed and I'm feeling the energy flow through me. I haven't had heartbreak in a couple of years and that seems to be the best catalyst for writing - in my case, anyway. I won't wax poetic or philosophical or political in this particular entry, but I hope to in most, because that's what I want this journal to be about.
I've been keeping a paper journal in which I write ferociously, but I want to share my words instead of obscuring them with the cover of a notebook. It's somehow comforting to know I'm being heard (or read in this case). I've been wanting to do some spoken word, as well, because it seems a lot of my poetry flows better when given breath and brought to life.
Chattanooga is treating me well and I have an incredible job as the Communications Assistant in the Women's Study Department at UTC that I got after a stint at the local natural foods store (now there's a story waiting to be written). School is moving along, but I'll be 25 by the time I graduate and by then I'm certain I'll be completely burned out on academia... even thinking about graduate school makes me anxious and drains my energy! Around the time I graduate, though, I'm getting a fairly lofty inheritance from my recently deceased grandfather and after paying off student loans, I want to travel a WHOLE LOT. I'd like to do some sort of long-term (6-12 months) globe trotting, especially in Asia and South America. The one constant in my future has always
been the Peace Corps and I still plan on doing that after volunteering with WWOOF
for a bit, hopefully abroad as well. It must be all the Sagittarius in my chart! :)
The last few months have been rough at times: my grandpa in Texas died in a freak accident in late July and my grandma in Pittsburgh (the one who lived with us) was diagnosed with brain tumors around the same time and passed away mid-September. A few weeks ago my cousin tried to kill himself, too, and a bunch of people in my family lost their jobs due to the shit economy we have at the moment. My love life is simply ridiculous, as I'm sure you've guessed. I'm not terribly close with anyone yet in Chattanooga - I have many acquaintances, but few people I've really clicked with. Robert (aesiron
) is definitely my closest friend in TN and I'm very thankful I met him; he's been a great help in many areas, from driving me to get my computer fixed to comforting me in my times of pain. Anyway, it's never easy, I suppose, and I'm trying to learn what I can from all the experiences. It's always a process of growth!
I hope everyone is doing well and on their proper life path (or at least attempting to get there); I've missed some of you and I only wish I could remember everyone's user names! Alas!